I just don’t follow her advice well 😬
I hate admitting it
But Ari technically was right two years ago. She advised me NOT to contact my now ex and I did… but I went about it all wrong and I wish I never called her to begin with… because here I was calling her thinking “he’ll call me, I just gotta wait for thing to settle. Even though I miss him. I just gotta stay strong”. Instead she gives me a very negative reading advising not to call but instead I contact him anyways, which kills me BECAUSE I KNEW THAT! THAT WAS MY GOAL IN THE FIRST PLACE!!! TO NOT CALL!!!
But I did it anyways- ugh. Looking back it was like I was drunk on proving her wrong … and it led to snowball of bigger fights. I wish I could take back calling her that night. I have some closure about the whole situation … but I wish I never contacted her because then at least I wouldn’t have fought with him
And the way she delivered news, it just triggered me all the wrong ways
But it’s done now
I accept I made the calls
All the wrong calls
And I couldn’t accept
And I do forgive myself for what I know now
So I dare not call her again because even though she MIGHT be right, I sadly take her advice all wrong.
Some readers … well most have that effect on me