I just want to vent to someone, and feel like I don’t have many people to turn to that I can unload on. Hoping I can get some good vibes and well-wishes from you guys. I was feeling much better the past couple of weeks, until yesterday and today.
All of my readers keep mentioning that my most recent ex is returning. A majority of them say he is the one. I just have a hard time believing this, but that’s neither here nor there. What this really boils down to is I feel so rejected and unable to connect to people.
Recently this guy started dating someone. We have been out of touch, so it’s no surprise and it really isn’t something I should be mad about. My problem is, this girl is just like a step up from a stripper. Literally. She has a picture of her on public social media with her fake boobs showing drinking straight from a bottle of jack daniels. I’m not one to judge but, y’all. I do not understand it at all. He is a grown adult who I would assume wants to settle down. They have met each other’s families, introduced their kids, like fully committed to a serious relationship.
My mentality at this point isn’t even about him. I’m more just at a loss for why my “happily ever after” never comes, and I get left for this. I am not someone who nags, I’m not jealous, I’m a good mom and provide a good life for my daughter and I, and I am attractive... I. Do. Not. Get. It. Obviously I am not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, I’m not perfect nor the best there is out there understandably. But eventually can’t I be SOMEBODY’S preference?! Does anyone else get this?
I went through a very abusive relationship previously, it’s been about 5 years since I left. And I guess I’m just getting to a point that I have been through enough bad, I finally want some good to come into life. Psychics have just been something I’ve turned to for hope, but it’s starting to crush the little hope I had left.
Hi Lpoche! Not sure how I missed this thread recently, but just read through it and there are some great posts on here!
If it’s any consolation, I can absolutely relate to how you feel, it’s similar to how I feel in my situation. For me, not being wanted fully by my POI has brought up deep-seated issues with feeling rejected. Having never been married and good relationships coming along less often now, I struggle with feeling fundamentally unlovable - even though logically I know that’s ludicrous. My last relationship was on the toxic/abusive side too and I stayed longer that I should have - it definitely highlights my inability to let things go easily even if it’s damaging to me.
I am really sorry that you are struggling with some similar issues - I don’t think I can give any better advice than what’s been given already, so I will just say know you are not alone and hopefully we can all help each other to have strength to fully let go of negative feelings which don’t serve us well, and to keep the faith that someone better WILL come along, because someone who can walk away easily is ultimately not someone who would be a good partner anyway.
Hugs to you!!
