Well, I received a phone call from Mattie this morning, at 430am.
Honestly, I have mixed feelings about it - I guess I was perhaps too hyped about it? Too many expectations? I believe I was expecting more in terms of predictions or in terms of concrete descriptions... Mattie kept asking me to validate something she would say by asking, "Would you agree?"
She wasn't wrong about anything she discussed, but I was left with wanting more, if that makes sense? Her description of why my ex left me is in line with Cookie, Kisha, Miss Ann, and Rachel Marie... and Mattie also predicted that my ex would come around, with big developments in May. Cookie also said May, while Kisha said nothing until August.
Mattie wouldn't say that we would absolutely get married, but she did say that since going no contact, I have placed myself in a position of great power... my ex is depressed with grief that I am not reaching out - she is terrified that I have moved on. Mattie continued to explain that I will have the choice to take my ex back, but (like Cookie) she warned that we would have to forgive ourselves and have some deep conversations about certain things or else the relationship would end again. We have "all the ingredients for an extremely happy and prosperous marriage over the long term," but I would need to keep calm and not pursue marriage like a goal.
She kept saying, "You two are not done... she is not willing to let you go. She just needs to figure out what she wants and she is slowly realizing that she lost something incredibly more valuable than she ever realized."
So, who knows? I suppose with Mattie, Kisha, and Cookie all suggesting that my ex will come back and that I will be the one to decide whether or not we will continue pretty much means there is a very high likelihood that we will get back together. At this point, at Mattie suggested, there is a large part of me that has moved on... who knows what will happen.
