Yes it was my closure conversation, I am on her queue again but frankly, regardless of everything I read here about her, I don't think I am going to think about it much.
See, there was a post couple of days ago on how everyone was wrong for one person here(please accept my apology i do nit recall the nickname), cookie was included in that post as being wrong as well, so I think this says something.
Yes it is scary when someone just asks you to tell your name aload three times and then they start to tell you why you are calling with all details. But then why they can not tell me what did I do in February to reject him. I mean seriously, how come they see how badly I was treated, but they can not just directly say you did this so that is why he felt so and got mad and thought he is not going to have you so decided to make sure if he can not have you then no one else can have you!!!!
I wanted a closure so bad, I still want, but I think I should get my closure myself, no one else can really give it to me. What happened, happened. For a long time I did my best to justify what he did, tried to think love can make people do so many things specially if there is fear involved. Just because I loved him to (still do). But honestly nothing can justify what he did, I just need to accept that. Might sound funny and maybe stupid, I am trying hypnosis now "to end a relationship". So far had two sessions and it is fun
hope it will work, fingers crossed
And you might ask why did I got back on her queue, I did because I really, but really hope one day I can talk to someone like her, who is very well known for her accuracy, and when she says he loves me or he will be back to me, I can tell myself: I REALLY DO NOT CARE anymore
Also, the other reason is, as much as I want a closure for myself, I want a closure for him as well, trust me it is not easy to know someone for four years, and love them for over two years, do everything to please them, think that no one on the earth so far could understand me as much as they did, to do not need to say much to understand each other, to just look into each others eyes and know what is going on, to have as much faith and trust one person can have for them,etc...and all of the sudden think this person is a jerk! So maybe an accurate reader like her can give me a reason, which although will not justify what he did anymore to me, but at least make me not hate someone I loved so dearly.