Same situation for me, I am a reader I never wanted a reading until this man came in and tore my heart to pieces. 2018 was an entire year of Retrograde (not sure if you believe in astrology, but Ive seen it true) and 2019 IS full of abundance. I also want to mention that I did not know this but while in the depth of depression I was told I have a nutrition deficiency including Iron, Magnesium, and vitamin B. I started taking multi vitamin and iron supplement, and suddenly, and I mean OVERNIGHT I was not going down to the level again. I still get a bit sad, yesterday was the first day in a while, and I cry, because like you mine was a liar and manipulator. How can myself, a psychic, not KNOW that?! Because my intuition betrayed me, it was so bad. On the other hand, he will be back this year so I guess my intuition might have been right in the long run.
Long story short, I empathize on another level. I take all readings with a grain of salt, most of them are bunk. This forum helped me identify good psychics, and ones that I did general reading with also mentioned love this year, not just those that I mentioned it to. 2019 is a time of abundance for people who have been suffering since Nov ish of 2017. Astrologically speaking.
Hang in there, take it one step at a time, if you get the urge to call, I’d suggest asking for general readings so they can bring it up or not, as every psychic will try to make you feel better with “its coming!”
You got this.