Your post is so sad. It seems you have had a much larger dependency on readers than you were aware of. You’re just very hurt and saddened at these turns of events as well and realizing how you were depending on readers instead of seeking to work on yourself. To say you’re never going to date or get in a relationship again is just foolish since your hurt is doing the talking. I’ve read how many celebrities have said the exact same thing after the turmoil of getting out of a relationship and that’s usually when they make some grand announcement that they aren’t going to do it again ever (when they are in the mist of the hurt). But then, after some time, you hear how they’ve remarried and have found the love of their lives.
Just give it some time and take some steps back and relax into being you for awhile and getting to know who you are, what you really want and then see what happens, as opposed to shutting some imaginary door altogether.
The mistakes many are making are putting their entire trust into readers. Life is a balance. If what they are saying doesn’t transpire, don’t give them second and third changes to keep saying the situation has been delayed, he is fearful, or whatever b.s. statement they come up with. The mistake is in the waiting and putting all ones eggs into one basket to break.
