Right about now the readers who work for most people have not worked for me.Why is it so hard for me to be read? Anyway i feel sometimes it is a protective thing from my guides lol. Why don't they want me to know? Right about now, i read when i am bored!!! It is for entertainment only and that is the value i put on reading. I just need to stop. Some of you have spent way to much and yes i am there too. i would not be surprised that i have spent over $30,000 on reading within the last 10years, i wouldn't. Some i believe have spent over $100,000. Please don't put value on the reading. Yes the only awesome reader at the time gave me insight that a guy who is to come now here whom i call Red is the one but did i believe it!!!! NOOOOOooooooo i didn't !!! and who is Red? he is not even the hottest man out there. Not in a million year would i think that the man i would end up falling in love with is not very physically attractive!! But he is smart, fun, loving, kind and above all he is the man my heart chose. He is the one and only that i have deeply fallen for. I use to think having a good looking man would ensure that my babies were cute, Yes i was looking out for my babies, and these good looking men with big status in life came to me , i did not go to them. Did i fall inlove with them? no i did not, but i loved every man i was involved with. I did not know what true love was. When you truly fall in love, I tell you time stands still and you don't worry about your dying eggs, infact you don't worry about if he loved you the same way cos you are able to love the person from a distant and in your heart. It is not physical it is not about you babes looking great. This world does not have any effect on how you feel. Now i understand the difference between falling in love and being vain. I can also love Red the same way even if he were happy with some other woman because when you truly love someone, all you want for them is their happiness.
