Lotusflower,
I agree with you 100%. I've been there (and still am at my weakest moments), focusing on my SM, asking the question 'why is he not calling?', 'when will he call?', checking my phone hundred times a day, analyzing everything, every single word he said and meaning of it, and calling psychics often to hear those words 'he will be back, be patient'. I'm trying to be patient, trying to go with the flow, trying to let the Universe to make it work for me, to let it unfold naturally.
Well I had a beautiful reading with Elijay from CP yesterday and it resonated with me so much. He told me that eventually I will need to make a decision whether to stay with him and accept his flaws or move on. BUT I don't need to make that decision right now. He still has some maturing to do and we can be happy together. He said ' love is a marathon, not a sprint. you should feel good with yourself, and decide what makes YOU happy'.
As for right now my SM would make me happy but I'm trying to be open for other possibilities.