I was thinking last night back to last summer.
And I was miserable . My poi and I had split in May and I waited and held on all summer and I was painstakingly miserable .
I didn’t enjoy my time at all and i spent my life wishing it away so we could talk .
We did get back together November and split December . And I was doing ok until we started talking again in May and now we are friends with benefits . The crazy thing is I was calling about a new guy back in January, and they kept bringing him back up and saying he would be back. I was adamant he want . But hey . He’s back lmao .
Now all the heavy hitters are saying it’s more than sex etc but it isn’t yet and I’ve been sitting here for a week feeling miserable again. And you know what ? It hit me.
I am NOT wasting another summer being miserable over a guy. This is my LIFE and things will either work out or not .
Right now , I’m letting go and don’t care . I’m done . His loss right ?
This summer is going to be the best yet. Fuck him. ( literally or not literally let’s see ) haha