My story is pretty confusing and long and I would hate to bore people with the details. I dated S for just under two years. We had always been long distance (living in different towns) and then eventually I pursued graduate studies in the U.K for a year. Come to when I decided to pursue my dream at the time he broke up with me and took a summer job 8 hours away. A few hours later he said he regretted his decision and loved me and couldn't let me go. So we got back together, come to August 2015 he had hesitations but I talked him out of it. Being overseas was hard but he surprised me and saved up money to visit me in Ocotober 2015 and I did the same for him a few weeks later. We broke up in December 2015. I was crushed. I loved him so much and he went off to try to replace me and got burned. This is when I stared calling psychics. Basically everyone gave a positive outcome, but for many their timing was off. I would say Abrielle was a few days off, but another home town psychic nailed it and gave so many validations. We got back together early Jan 2016, he basically begged me to give him another chance, of course I would I loved him. Come to April 2016, when he was just getting into his masters and getting overwhelmed he tried to break up again, right before my assignments were due. We talked it out but in May 2016 he did the same thing asking for "space". Again I called psychics and all the timing was off, but outcomes right. I'd say Maureen was most correct and Judis inner light. But I was the one to convince him this time. We made it work until July 2016 where I caught him lying about something and he just shut down and broke up with me saying he couldn't balance both school and me. Shortly after I found out I was pregnant and when I told him he was so hurtful and unsupportive. Eventually he apologized but going through an abortion together his support wavers. Some days he's so nice and other days so cold. Found out he's sleeping with another girl and hanging out with her when all I asked was for him to be there for me. I know he's doing it to get over me, the abortion and stress from school. I was so hurt when I found out. I spent months calling psychics and the one to nail him was Lady Persephone, Judi, SIN got some events right, and AstroSarah.
I realize I changed the timeline of it's still going to happen. I chose to reach out to him because I wanted closure. He gave me a bunch of reasons I feel are bullsjit like "I never loved you""I was never happy with you and now I am" "I never saw a future with you or wanted kids" etc. I was crushed. How could we love one another for two years and he pull that crap? I was so depressed. I just wanted him back and to love him and be loved by him.
Don't get me wrong, it's a quick summary of all the negative events. But I know he loved me and cared about me. He'd drive crazy distances just to see me for a short time or drive through snow storms to take me to the hospital and made me feel beautiful. But he had his insecurities and doubts
Today I talked to a guy friend I met in the UK. To be honest we hung out once, but I always felt he was someone who would be special. Turns out he was. He liked a comment on my Facebook page so I reached out to ask how he was doing and we got to talking. I eventually opened up about my depression and how I was struggling so bad with the break up and abortion and how I wanted to make him happy and hoped he would come back. He told me to watch Tony Robbins: I am not a Guru. It f'ing changed my life.
I'm over this. Why am I pining over someone who left me because he was scared, overwhelmed and insecure?Someone who left me when I needed him most. Someone who took away my shine and made me feel like I did something g wrong to lose his love. Someone who thinks (told me himself) that he's sleeping with someone else because he has needs, it's nothing serious, and she helps to fill a void. F THAT. I'm over it. I'm not going to beg to get back someone who isn't happy with themselves and blames me for it. I'm going to let go. Whether he comes back or not at thing point, I am choosing to be happy with myself. I am choosing to pursue my path because I want to make a difference in the lives of people. I know what I want in life now and I always have. The film helped me realize that. He doesn't know what he wants in life or what makes him happy and it's pulled me down. I spent more time caring about him and how to make him happy that I never took a moment to think about what did I need to be happy. I choose to do me. I want him to be happy and if he needed my help to get there I would help but whether he comes back or not, it's not my loss. I'm choosing to be a winner tonight. At the end of the day I know I won't be the one having regrets. I'm not going to just be with someone to fill a void. I'm going to work on me and learning to love myself. When you can love yourself, you can love freely and know the love you are so deserving of.
Please watch the film ladies!!! It will change you and make you cry and hopefully give you your power back.
