They call me the necromancer. Watch as I raise threads from the dead!
Nah, kidding. Just saying I closed my Keen account, my PS account, and...well, my CP account was already closed. I'm done, I think. This ride has been too much, and way too expensive.
I'll still pop in from time to time, but it'll be social, not practical, most likely. I took a long look at my personal history and read through my diary this past weekend and in retrospect, as I look back at all of my relationships, a lot of my relationships turned toxic after I started calling the psychics. I'm not saying they're to blame for the boyfriend who was abusive or the one who cheated on me, but I am saying that I stayed in these unhealthy relationships because of the calls and the false hope I was being given, even as my common sense was screaming at me to get out. When the heart wants something, it will look for an excuse to keep it, and these calls did exactly that. And at least one of my relationships turned bad as a direct result of the calls - it was going fine, but the calls gave me so much anxiety and made me so impatient for things to start moving forward that I tried to rush things and it all fell apart.
Never again. Never, ever again. From here on out, if it's meant to be, then it's meant to be. If I'm meant to reunite with a past lover, I will. If not, fine. There will be others. If I'm meant to get a promotion because of my hard work, I will. If I get passed over, despite all my hard work, knowing that in advance isn't going to help me. I'm still going to get passed over.
I'm pretty sure this time will be the time I stick to my guns, much as I did with ending my relationship. I've just had enough all around. There are certain advisers I might have called again, but those advisers would recommend I stop calling and take control of my life anyway. (Okay, yeah, I'm talking about Kisha. She's really the only one left that I'd actually trust at this point, because even when her predictions are off, she's still pretty right on in the grand scheme and will give you the kick in the pants you need.)
No good comes of this habit of ours. It's thrilling when a psychic gets a prediction right, sure, but they're not actually
doing anything to improve our lives. They're just keeping us focused on whatever problem it is we're calling about so that we wind up not letting go of it. It's so unhealthy.
And wouldn't you know it? In her last prediction to me, Kisha said that even though I'd thought I'd burned the bridge, I hadn't really. And she was still right. But I'm not calling psychics about what to do with this guy anymore. I'm going to listen to what she told me, which is that I have to be okay with my decision on my own, and if I'm not, then I have to take the steps necessary to make myself okay with whatever the situation becomes, and no one else can do that for me. (She also strongly recommended that I keep him the hell out of my life, but that almost goes without saying, ha.)
...I think I'm rambling now. I meant for this to be short, so sorry about that. Instead, I'll leave you with my macro of the day. Enjoy.