Hello, everyone. This is my psychic addiction story. I am SO happy to have a place to talk and vent about this, and I hope what I have to say can be helpful or resonate with some of you.
I was always interested in/believed in psychics and would periodically call them. Mostly, I did it about once or twice a year. Just before my divorce started, I started calling one psychic about once a month, Jolina (CP).
About two months after my divorce was final, I met "Jake." It was an amazing amount of passion between the two of us. He was younger than me and single. He freaked out on the second date and we broke up.
I wouldn't hear from Jake for four more months. During this time, I called a LOT of psychics. The circumstances of the situation were so unusual, and I needed perspective from people who would understand. I was in love with Jake. I was trying to sort out what had happened, what was happening, and what was going to happen. It was a period of intense spiritual confusion. I became addicted to psychics. I spent thousands of dollars, mostly with CP. (it feels so good to admit this, by the way)
At the end of June, Jake texted. He was moving to Arizona.
About a month later, I texted him just like he asked and we had an awkward conversation where he didn't seem very warm. Then almost two weeks later, (this was about a week ago) he texted and said he was thinking of me, and then called me on the phone. From 2000 miles away. The phone disconnected and I tried calling back, but he didn't pick up. In the morning, I pressed him for answers. He said it was no big deal and he was just drunk. "I still crave you every now and again" he said, "I wish we could have one last experience." "Me too!" I said, "Seriously." Then I offered to come see him, and he said no, making some excuse about work.
I made two calls to psychics, then nothing more. Considering what went down, I feel rather proud of myself over that. I think (hope) the whole psychic thing is going to be a chapter in my past. Here are some of my observations about psychic readings:
Psychics are real. They really can read your energy, but the problem is they can pick up anything. They could read your thoughts or parrot your fears back to you. Sometimes what comes out as a prediction is nothing more than empathic tuning.
Some of them will get it right and some of them won't, but you won't know which ones are right until after it is played out.
Their predictions and advice can influence your decisions and behavior in a way that isn't wise/healthy. This isn't as true with some readers whom I trust, but every time you get a reading with someone new, you take a psychological risk and that person now has the power to really mess with you. Getting a psychic reading essentially means surrendering your personal power, if only for those few minutes you are on the phone.
After this experience, I've come to the conclusion that Spirit does often want to relay a message, but more often than not, it isn't through a psychic and it's certainly not several times a week. I do have one very special relationship psychic I talk to who I feel was God appointed to guide me on this journey. If I could do it over, I would call her and only her and no one else. I did need her, so I do think psychic readings have their place. But she is a special reader who does not work through greed or ego, and that's very important if you want to get to the truth. So often, I felt the psychics were more egoic about their abilities and that got in the way. And above all else, I would have trusted myself more. It was lack of faith in self that got me into this mess in the first place.
Nice to meet you all!
Hawkgirl.
