How frequent to you call ann? I spoke to her about 10 days ago and she made me feel better about a situation but for some reason my anixtey and worries are really bad today and wondering if its safe to call her tonight?.... I am a very overly emotional person as maybe some of you can relate... and if one little thing happens with my POI ( falling really hard for him, he is an old childhood friend) my thoughts go wild and my anixtey kicks in. Probably bc prior to him I was with a POS for 7 years who was always with one foot in and one foot out. Emotionally abusive and really just did a number to me over the years. So now that I am with someone new for the past 3 months my life has been in a such a high. In the best way possible. My boyfriend now hasn’t done anything concrete in the past 3 months to make me ever doubt, instead he has told me really good things whenever we would have a convo... he told me we both want the same things which is music to my ears since me ex couldn’t even use the words “ we” or “us” and that really fucked with me. So it’s my bf hasn’t done anything to me to make me think otherwise however HIS ex still blows up his phone and while he tells me there is absolutely nothing nothing nothing to be worried about, well I still worry. I don’t show him I worry and I play it cool but he will look at his phone and say “ here it goes “ and a million calls and texts will come through. He lives in the town we both grew up in and I love an hour away a
But since then I have decided I want to be closer to my family and move back home. And he is fully supportive and is excited. But for some reason... and maybe it’s bc if my past ( PTSD from my ex leaving me and then walking back in my life after 3 months, that happened 6 times) I feel like something bad is going to happen. I don’t like to show my bf how much of a scaredy-cat I am cause I guess that’s my way of protecting myself, but any little thing will set me off into a ball of emotions like omg did his mind change now is HE going to leave me like my ex left me. Uffa. Anyway, what spikes all this is that I am at my parents house tonight but he isn’t feeling good so he texted me before saying he was just going to chill home.... uffa, I said ok with a smiley. But I’d rather see him. Is it safe to call ann to see how he he feeling at the current moment?