Thanks, everyone! I'm really excited about this new man in my life. Last night he told me that I amaze him on a daily basis. He told me that he can't believe how any man could have me and then do something to lose me because I'm a catch. I've never felt so special. I'm also really happy that we've both have opened up with each other about our past relationships. It allows us to understand each other better. I know that there are great men out there for you all, as well... it may even be the ex that you're waiting for. Just believe it, and it'll happen. It didn't happen the way I expected it to, but I found a good man nonetheless.
Tango,
I truly believe that my ex and I have an intense connection. I really do think that he feels my energy pulling away, and that's why he has been initiating so much interaction with me. After I posted on here yesterday, he came to see me again. He asked me if I was happy that he was back at work. His energy was very anxious and nervous. I was very short and kind of cold to him though, which is completely unlike me. I just don't want to do anything to hurt Chance, and I don't know what my ex is thinking at this point anyways.
If he does open up to me and asks for me back (which I really highly doubt), it would be terrible timing, as you say Tango. If I am honest with you all, as convinced I am that Chance is amazing and everything I could ever want in a man, there is a large part of my heart that only wants my ex. Logically though, I know that he has never shown any interest in my children, and I cannot accept a man who doesn't see himself as part of my family. I wish Raven, Roxie, Jacqueline, and so many other readers had been right about him wanting to meet my children, but it didn't happen, so I'm moving on.