I think I’m done

[artsygirlms]

Massive addict - massive
Like spent all my money. Always do.

Been majorly hung up on a guy with addiction problems and in recovery. He’s a mess but I loved him. Funny enough even good psychics saw something picking up end of April and taking off in May.

I have been so so so sad the last month over him doing his pattern again. I don’t even know how much I have spent. Most of them are bullshit. Plus energy changes all the time.

Anyway of all things I met a super cool man who has everything in common with me as soon as I decided NO I cannot keep doing this to myself. I’m too hot and cool. I deserve better. It’s not my job to protect him so he doesn’t get triggered. Go to therapy. Get help.

Anyway out of the blue this man is like everything I saw in that guy but proactive, wants to go on adventures, wants to spend time, all the things I dreamed of with my SP. this guy shows up out of the blue and bam.

So yeah I have wasted literally 10s of thousands of dollars over the years. I think after this stint of being hung up and spending everything for it not to work out and get heartbroken. I’m done. I think I’m just gonna get therapy and finally get honest about my addiction and anxiety. 

[Notacrystalfreak]

Massive addict - massive
Like spent all my money. Always do.

Been majorly hung up on a guy with addiction problems and in recovery. He’s a mess but I loved him. Funny enough even good psychics saw something picking up end of April and taking off in May.

I have been so so so sad the last month over him doing his pattern again. I don’t even know how much I have spent. Most of them are bullshit. Plus energy changes all the time.

Anyway of all things I met a super cool man who has everything in common with me as soon as I decided NO I cannot keep doing this to myself. I’m too hot and cool. I deserve better. It’s not my job to protect him so he doesn’t get triggered. Go to therapy. Get help.

Anyway out of the blue this man is like everything I saw in that guy but proactive, wants to go on adventures, wants to spend time, all the things I dreamed of with my SP. this guy shows up out of the blue and bam.

So yeah I have wasted literally 10s of thousands of dollars over the years. I think after this stint of being hung up and spending everything for it not to work out and get heartbroken. I’m done. I think I’m just gonna get therapy and finally get honest about my addiction and anxiety.

So you found a new man?

[artsygirlms]

Yep and it was out of the blue. And the crazy thing is he is literally all the things I wanted the first one to be. It’s like this guy is the things man #1 wouldn’t give me.

Man #1 was so cool & perfect for me IF…
-if he would love himself, if he wasn’t terrified of love, if he worked through his really bad traumas and healed, if he wasn’t so avoidant

This guy is wanting to do literally all of the things I imagined going with man #1.

The hard part was really working through and accepting that no matter the “thoughts and feelings” man #1 has or had, I cannot break through to make him treat me well, express it or have a traditional relationship.

Seems like man #2 wants to explore it, do things together, go on adventures. Everything I want

I’m sick to think of how much money I spent on psychics for man #1. I am immediately starting therapy and getting my money in order.

[Notacrystalfreak]

Yep and it was out of the blue. And the crazy thing is he is literally all the things I wanted the first one to be. It’s like this guy is the things man #1 wouldn’t give me.

Man #1 was so cool & perfect for me IF…
-if he would love himself, if he wasn’t terrified of love, if he worked through his really bad traumas and healed, if he wasn’t so avoidant

This guy is wanting to do literally all of the things I imagined going with man #1.

The hard part was really working through and accepting that no matter the “thoughts and feelings” man #1 has or had, I cannot break through to make him treat me well, express it or have a traditional relationship.

Seems like man #2 wants to explore it, do things together, go on adventures. Everything I want

I’m sick to think of how much money I spent on psychics for man #1. I am immediately starting therapy and getting my money in order.

Out of the blue as in no reader predicted it?