Hi sweetie. When I read your story here, I felt your pain. I first would like to say that I'm very sorry your heart is hurting. I've been there plenty of times in my life. You're in your mid 20s, I'll be 47 on January 26th. I've had a few decades of heartbreaks. Since you're open to feedback, I'd like to share mine. I'm very straight forward so anything I say is not meant to hurt you, rather to help you. I'm going to break this down into parts.
Part 1: Psychic readings - I still get readings myself. I've been getting readings for about 18 years. I do believe there are fated events and a real psychic should be seeing that event take place no matter what happens in the interim. What I've learned about different types of readers, in my experience, is as follows:
Tarot Readings - Tarot card readers are a no go if you're looking for future predictions. Cards would typically only be good for the here and now. At the same time, if you take one card and show it to 10 readers, each one will have their own interpretation. I do not trust tarot readings and I stay far away from them. They've literally NEVER been accurate for me. (Including Yona).
Empaths - Only good for the here and now thoughts/feelings but NOT seeing future events.
Clairvoyant - These are my go-to type of readers. NO TOOL clairvoyants because they see fated future events (If they are real and a spiritually evolved reader).
Mediums - Best for communications with deceased loved ones.
Remote viewers - Great for seeing what a person's up to, lost objects, where someone is at etc.
Timing - Time does not exist in the spiritual world so timing can be difficult for ANY reader to pin down. Some clairvoyants can actually see years out and not even realize that they're seeing that far out. They may think it's a week or a month or a few months away. I recommend not holding too tightly to timing (as hard as that is and I know from experience that is no easy task).
Astrology - I'm a huge fan of it. It can be used to determine energies we are entering to where certain things have a better chance of happening than during other times. We obviously all have sun signs which can dictate certain general, common traits we'll carry. However, we have ENTIRE CHARTS that have a huge part to play regarding compatibility.
Me personally, I will ONLY try out and use NO TOOLS readers that are clairvoyant (a must), but they can also INCLUDE being clairaudient (hearing), clairsentient (knowing), and an empath at the same time. But again, my number one rule is that they MUST BE clairvoyant and they MUST NOT use ANY tools. Additionally, please know that at LEAST 90% of these platform readers are unevolved spiritually and haven't really honed their abilities. We all have psychic abilities but we aren't all "tuned in". In fact, I've noticed that the older I get, the more my abilities increase but I admit, I've done no real work/practice to hone them into expertise. The reason most of us go on binges is because when we get one reading, that reading doesn't fully resonate with OUR OWN intuition so we go to another reader and on and on until we find one that matches what we really feel/know, deep down inside. You'd literally have to spend massive amounts of money sifting through tons of different readers to find "your reader" that connects very well with you. While it is true that people's energies are constantly changing, again, I believe there are certain fated events that a psychic should be able to see no matter how many times the energies change in between.
Part 2: Human behavior/psychology:
First thing I'd like to mention here is that the brain doesn't completely develop until the age of 25. Meaning, maturity levels will typically not be present prior to that age and will just begin to develop AFTER 25.
Second, men mature a lot slower than women. While a female may be ready to settle and have kids, marry etc. in their mid 20st and beyond, men typically are never at that point in their 20s and even the thought scares them. I personally would not recommend ANYONE settle down into marriage with children before the age of 30. Your 20s should be a time of exploring and learning who you are, having fun, building careers, etc. Not for marriage and children. I do understand different cultures are not the same and early marriage is common etc. but the times we live in now are much different than decades ago.
Third, we, as a society, have been taught many "games" to play when it comes to relationships in an attempt to "change the energies". Example: The NO CONTACT rule. If a person is going NO CONTACT, it should never be used as a form of "punishment" for the other person. If you're going NO CONTACT it should be because you really don't want to communicate with said person but rather because you are wanting to move on and heal. Another example is, breaking up with someone in an attempt to force change. If you break up with someone, it should be because you are either tired of their behavior and the dynamics of the relationship, or because you really do want to move on. It should never come with the expectation that the person you broke up with will then pursue you. All of these factors here have to do with levels of emotional maturity. Most of us don't have that in our 20s. I know I sure the hell didn't.
Fourth, most of us on this planet will experience multiple relationships for the purpose of our own growth, and that of the other person. If someone leaves you and moves on to someone else, then they need that experience with the other person for their growth and you needed to be without them for your own growth. Understand, pain is the only catalyst to growth. You literally cannot learn or grow without it. How you deal with it and how quickly you learn the lesson it's trying to teach you is completely up to you. But just know that repeating situations, types of men and relationships you attract will occur until you learn said lesson, change your attitudes and ways of handling things, and heal.
Fifth, it is imperative that you resolve your own self-esteem issues of not feeling good enough etc. We all get frustrated when we're in pain. You must convince yourself that you are worth so much more. Do things to work on your own self confidence and everything else will fall into place and you will attract what is meant for you. Please understand that EVERY relationship you've ever had was "meant to be" for that time. Sometimes that time lasts months, sometimes years, but rarely a lifetime unless you meet much later in life. It does happen in early years but it's rare. You work on your own maturity levels etc. Please remember, you will only attract people that are on your same frequency. Anxiety and fear (which I suffer will badly) will only attract those same low vibe people to you. Trust me, I continue to experience this myself. You will always attract what you ARE, not what you want unless you have already become exactly what you want. You must ask yourself, would you want to be in a relationship with you? Dig deep, self reflect. I've had to face some really ugly parts of myself and work on changing those. Still working on that to this day. I think self improvement is a life long journey that has not stopping point.
Part 3: Your two POIs
POI 1 - When a man, rather I should say boy in your case because it's highly likely he's only in his 20s as well, leaves you out of nowhere, it's because he isn't ready to commit. Something tells me you've probably had many talks with him about marriage and children. I'm pretty sure he wasn't ready for those kinds of conversations nor that type of commitment, and at his age, he wasn't going to be able to be transparent about that because transparency requires maturity. Additionally, he's a Pisces. Those signs are commitment phobes to begin with lol. (Speaking from pure experience here). They are slippery fish, hard to nail down. They also tend to be very timid and will not be that open, ever. They are just not built that way. It's highly probable that the relationship he's in now will not last either. Pisces are typically sweethearts though and I do believe he did not mean to hurt you and when he said you deserve someone better and not like him, I do believe he meant it but what he was really trying to say was, you deserve someone that is on your same page regarding commitment, marriage, children and he wasn't on that same page.
POI 2 - You said you broke up with him because of morals etc. At the same time, somehow you're expecting him to reach out to you, if I read that correctly. That isn't how it works. If you break up with someone, it should be because you're done, you don't want that anymore, etc. but not with the expectation that the person will then pursue you. If you miss POI 2 and you broke up with HIM, then YOU should be the one reaching out to make amends and see if there's a way to move forward.
Believe it or not, your love life is not a joke. It's that you are very young still (like I know you keep hearing). I don't discount your feelings at all. I'm just trying to help you be more realistic with things. At your age, honestly, you should be focusing on career, building a stable life, etc. so that when the time comes, you're completely set up to have children and able to care for them financially etc. Do not depend on the help of a man for these things because life happens. You could fall in love tomorrow, get married, have 2.5 kids, have the house, and 5 or 10 years later you get divorced, or that man dies, or that man becomes disabled and can't help. You gotta be prepared for anything and everything. I wish someone would have told me these things when I was your age. I had zero guidance. I had my son when I was 16. It was a disaster. I've still never been married yet but I do know it's coming. I still get readings but I only read with two people now and I won't read with anyone else. I just went on a binge myself to which the majority of them were wrong. I got impatient and didn't want to wait for my regular to be available. Wasted about 500 bucks on nonsense. :/
I would recommend that you stop reading with the same readers that you've been going to that have proven to be inaccurate time and time again. You're wasting your time and money. It's also clear that they're causing you massive confusion and that isn't going to help with your anxiety issues. You're welcome to private message me should you wish to talk more. I'd love to try to be a light in your time of darkness.
Just keep in your mind, you WILL cross paths with someone someday that you will marry. Try your best to really focus on your self-confidence, healing any past traumas, career, and FUN. Blessings to you dear.
