Ok let's bring this back to my quitting story
So I failed miserably this month. I went on binge calls the past two days >.< I feel guilty. But I also feel I needed to talk to someone =(
I can't talk about my situation with anyone else. I have been distancing and not texting my POI and I am hurting. I am in the phase where I am having a hard time accepting that it is in my best interests to move on. I go back and forth with the whole thing.
I don't understand how someone can go from being so loving and genuine and wanting to spend their time with you to talking to multiple other people and giving you the cold shoulder. I also don't believe in the whole, 'get under someone to get over someone else' . At least not in the beginning stages of pulling away from someone you love. That won't make me feel better.
Anyways, my point being, I binged and I am disappointed. I am struggling with fully letting go of this person which is why the binges happened - a couple advisors told me it will get better (but I do not believe them) and one told me there is no future (while I believe her, a part of me does not want to believe her). I don't know how I am going to pray my way out of the hurt, but I can't keep calling advisors.
I worry my intuition and sense of judgement is off too. How could I believe this is the person I was going to marry? And how does a tiny part of me still think this will magically work out? I feel confused and hurt.
Re: prayer, I also am struggling to decide if I want to pray for this person to change and come back into my life or if I want to pray the feelings away :/ Feels like I'm not in a clear state of mind.
Anyways, thanks for listening.