You all are going to think I'm so emotionally unstable and mentally confused (I am confused though). I have another update. I'm not going to leave anymore updates until the giant parts happen after this though in an attempt to prevent myself from coming across as insane.
I went back and listened to my reading with Sincerity again from December 29th. I record most of my readings. Turns out, she wasn't wrong. She said a big issue with him was that he was moody. She said he'd go back and forth with what he was going to do on NYE. She said he'd change his mind at the very last minute. She said she saw him tucked in, not going out. He obviously did change his mind at the last minute, and he didn't go out, and in fact was in bed pretty much the entire day and night. I got proof of that which brings me to the actual update.
I received texts from him on new year's day. He was apologetic but I gave him a piece of my mind (in a mature way) and just basically told him I was done with everything, done chasing, done waiting for change, but that I wished him the best. I didn't hear anything from him the next day, which was fine. I wasn't expecting to nor was I caring at all.
I did receive more communication yesterday with him saying he missed me, that he knew it didn't matter to me but that he wanted me to know I was on his mind. I did respond. He asked if he could come over. I allowed it. The dogs really miss him anyway. There was no intimacy or anything. I'm not jumping back in. However, we did have a long random discussion to which he said some things that shocked the hell out of me, in a pleasant way. Never thought I'd ever hear him say such things. I'm not jumping back in at this time but I don't see a reason to make it bitter or world war three either. I'm going to see what happens and where things go naturally. I'm actually kind of liking living alone. I feel free.
When the part of commitment/promise comes to pass, I'll give another update. For now, I don't expect much although I'll secretly enjoy the humility being shown along with the much more open communication as well. Just gonna keep things light and easy and keep focusing on myself. Hope everyone had a great new year and hope things will flow much smoother for everyone this year.
