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Ruined my life
Cancersun22:
Hey everyone.
I have been going to psychics for around 5 years. But more frequently for the past 2 years.
I can say, that I am delusional because of all these so called ''psychics'' my relationship have sadly been affected by this and I have hit rock bottom. I am now jealous, low self esteem, depressed and I have horrible anxiety + all the money I wasted on them.
They have said things like that me and my boyfriend will break up (a year ago). that he wouls propose (last fall and some said this summer..) that I would get a job opportunity and that I would travel for work. NEVER HAPPEND. I just feel like I secretly believe them still (some of the predictions I am ''waiting on'') And it drives me insane. I feel Insane.
This have ruined my life.
I just keep crying, I feel like my relationship is over, like it's going down. Due to how much my brain have taken in and how delusional I have gotten. I just want to wake up from this night mare, I feel trapped and I don't know what to do anymore. I have even thought about taking my own life because I feel hopeless.
I have fed my brain with so many predictions and a lot of them have caused stress, worries and so on.
I now get super jealous, thinking that something bad will happen or that my boyfriend is bad or hiding things from me. Like I see him as a bad cruel person, in my dreams he cheats, i cheat, he breaks up with me, or he is just super cruel and flirts with other women and so on. I CAN'T ESCAPE IT EVEN WHILE I SLEEP. But he is the most caring loving guy.
And what I hate the most is probably how jealous I have become, how much I stare at what he stares at and how angry I get if he talks to a girl. It brings me down and It makes me feel like shit.
So, I don't understand why my brain keeps doing this to me!
I just feel super lost because, I don't know where to turn.
But I got to say that It's a real sad addiction and all these scammers are horrible.
I just don't wish this upon anyone else.
Realrealwater:
I work with those with addictions.
Tell someone close to you and be very honest.
Try and block yourself - give up your access to these sites& money ( ask your credit card company to block psychic sites)
Get to the root - speak to your man about your fears
Therapy or support ( you can find that here)
Finally, make the decision everyday that you are going to do things differently - no more readings.
Smiley1:
I am so sorry this is happening to you, to some extent many of us have been here and done this.
My advice is this, stop giving your power away to psychics and realise that only you can make the decisions for your future and your partner.
Never fall in love with what someone COULD be or offer, take what your BF offers you on face value and either you want that or you do not.
This is your life, nobody else's and if you continue to hand over your power to another force or psychic who does not live your life then you are going to feel out of control.
Stop ringing psychics, ring a hotline for help or someone you can talk to trust that you are not alone and that if your relationship fails it is because you made the decisions based on your needs not on what a psychic promised you could happen.
Take your power back and your control of your life.
The unhappiness we can all experience waiting for the fairytale to happen is what we need to stop, our fairytale is our own to write, nobody else is responsible for our own happiness.
--- Quote from: Cancersun22 on June 20, 2020, 11:03:47 PM ---Hey everyone.
I have been going to psychics for around 5 years. But more frequently for the past 2 years.
I can say, that I am delusional because of all these so called ''psychics'' my relationship have sadly been affected by this and I have hit rock bottom. I am now jealous, low self esteem, depressed and I have horrible anxiety + all the money I wasted on them.
They have said things like that me and my boyfriend will break up (a year ago). that he wouls propose (last fall and some said this summer..) that I would get a job opportunity and that I would travel for work. NEVER HAPPEND. I just feel like I secretly believe them still (some of the predictions I am ''waiting on'') And it drives me insane. I feel Insane.
This have ruined my life.
I just keep crying, I feel like my relationship is over, like it's going down. Due to how much my brain have taken in and how delusional I have gotten. I just want to wake up from this night mare, I feel trapped and I don't know what to do anymore. I have even thought about taking my own life because I feel hopeless.
I have fed my brain with so many predictions and a lot of them have caused stress, worries and so on.
I now get super jealous, thinking that something bad will happen or that my boyfriend is bad or hiding things from me. Like I see him as a bad cruel person, in my dreams he cheats, i cheat, he breaks up with me, or he is just super cruel and flirts with other women and so on. I CAN'T ESCAPE IT EVEN WHILE I SLEEP. But he is the most caring loving guy.
And what I hate the most is probably how jealous I have become, how much I stare at what he stares at and how angry I get if he talks to a girl. It brings me down and It makes me feel like shit.
So, I don't understand why my brain keeps doing this to me!
I just feel super lost because, I don't know where to turn.
But I got to say that It's a real sad addiction and all these scammers are horrible.
I just don't wish this upon anyone else.
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jas:
Well, the good news is that you have taken the first step by acknowledging the problem - Bravo!
The bad news is that you are blaming the psychics. I get it - been there, done that. Stop blaming them - take responsibility - you can do this!!!
Remember, baby steps. Start slowly.
I have a new way of tricking myself out of calling. When I feel like picking up the phone and spending a quick $25 to $50 I log onto my credit card account and make a payment in that amount. It's working, my balance is finally starting to come down.
Smiley1:
That is genius.
--- Quote from: jas on June 21, 2020, 01:07:06 AM ---Well, the good news is that you have taken the first step by acknowledging the problem - Bravo!
The bad news is that you are blaming the psychics. I get it - been there, done that. Stop blaming them - take responsibility - you can do this!!!
Remember, baby steps. Start slowly.
I have a new way of tricking myself out of calling. When I feel like picking up the phone and spending a quick $25 to $50 I log onto my credit card account and make a payment in that amount. It's working, my balance is finally starting to come down.
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