Hey everyone.
I have been going to psychics for around 5 years. But more frequently for the past 2 years.
I can say, that I am delusional because of all these so called ''psychics'' my relationship have sadly been affected by this and I have hit rock bottom. I am now jealous, low self esteem, depressed and I have horrible anxiety + all the money I wasted on them.
They have said things like that me and my boyfriend will break up (a year ago). that he wouls propose (last fall and some said this summer..) that I would get a job opportunity and that I would travel for work. NEVER HAPPEND. I just feel like I secretly believe them still (some of the predictions I am ''waiting on'') And it drives me insane. I feel Insane.
This have ruined my life.
I just keep crying, I feel like my relationship is over, like it's going down. Due to how much my brain have taken in and how delusional I have gotten. I just want to wake up from this night mare, I feel trapped and I don't know what to do anymore. I have even thought about taking my own life because I feel hopeless.
I have fed my brain with so many predictions and a lot of them have caused stress, worries and so on.
I now get super jealous, thinking that something bad will happen or that my boyfriend is bad or hiding things from me. Like I see him as a bad cruel person, in my dreams he cheats, i cheat, he breaks up with me, or he is just super cruel and flirts with other women and so on. I CAN'T ESCAPE IT EVEN WHILE I SLEEP. But he is the most caring loving guy.
And what I hate the most is probably how jealous I have become, how much I stare at what he stares at and how angry I get if he talks to a girl. It brings me down and It makes me feel like shit.
So, I don't understand why my brain keeps doing this to me!
I just feel super lost because, I don't know where to turn.
But I got to say that It's a real sad addiction and all these scammers are horrible.
I just don't wish this upon anyone else.