First off I am SOOO SORRY you are going through something like this, I felt I needed to reach out and just suggest that at this point you need to seek help outside of this relationshi p, you should really seek a therapist and although it may be hard I would suggest reaching out to family to ask them for help... drug addiction is a very very serious thing, not excusing this man for anything he is doing, but it is extremely detrimental to not only his and your health but your relationshi p and now obviously your mental health... please please whatever you do reach out to those whom you can depend on, seek a therapist and seek this man help... he needs an interventio n, is there family or friends you can call for him he needs to get into a drug program ASAP and you need to get help such as therapy and/or loved ones... This is a serious issue and I do not want to see you going this alone with only this forum to help. I have dealt first hand with family with addiction and my cousins family staged an interventio n and he went to rehab for almost a year, he had a child at home and it tore his marriage and home life apart. He is now sober and an amazing father, he looks forward to his days and weekends with his daughter but I saw the most kind hearted laid back man with an AMAZING job lose everything and turn into someone we hardly could recognize. Luckily he had people show up for him in ways that probably not only saved his life but also his relationshi p with his daughter. Please seek help outside of psychics and this forum, my heart goes out to you and obviously if you need you can PM me, I would hate to see you go this alone.
