I completely understand. My new guy is so good to me and if I even think he's pulling back slightly I freak out. The only thing that has really stopped me binging is really thinking about my past with psychics. How many got it wrong in the past? All the fairytales that never came through. Why would I call any of them again? I trust 2 or 3 for very specific things out of hundreds I called. I just spent 5 hours with my guy. 5 hours and 3 were spent talking about our ex's. Specifically the ex's we have to go parent with. His insecurities and him baring them to me.... Priceless. One reader nailed this. QofCs told me 3 days ago he is at war with a woman connected to a child. His heart is open and his guard is down towards you. Yep verified today. Anne is my rock but I have even cut down to once every 2 weeks with her.
Anytime you feel an urge think of all that were wrong. Know that calling them again they will most likely be wrong again. Find a solid reader or two. Anne told me a few weeks ago that my anxiety will push people away and I know I'm doing it so stop it lol. She was 100% right. Be open and honest with the new guy and expect nothing less in return.