Aaron,
this WHY I came her to this forum was to vent, seek, try, read, learn and see other peopleS'
Journey. Venting is healthy! This is really been a dark dark time in my life. Tell everyone my soul has darken and heart is the size of a dried grape..ouch.
I thought I was the only bringer...the money I have spent.. the last three years. Whoa. Can not think about it now..I for sure did it to myself... still confused.
Vent. Do what it takes to see yourself in a better place.