For me, the platform systems like Keen have been the real problem. Getting a reading from someone that has their own site takes planning and you retain a certain amount of a self-control over how much you spend. The impulse binges, those are the ones that are emotionally and financially so incredibly destructive.
Funny thing is, if the person I am interested in were to reach out to me tomorrow, I wouldn’t really even know what to say to him. When asked what I’ve been up to, I sure wouldn’t want to say that I’ve been calling a bunch of psychics to see if I’d ever hear from him again and to find out what he’s been doing. This, here, is a very slippery slope. At one point I’d only go to a psychic to see what the universe and guides had as advice for me to grow spiritually and reach a higher version of self. Then it turned into crazy ass madness of being codependent on readings. A “negative” reading would turn my day on its head.
I really don’t like the person I’ve become since July. Hell, I wouldn’t date the current version of myself. It’s a tricky thing with these readings because out of nowhere it seems like you stop doing the things you love to do and your priorities get all mixed up. I’m not really sure how it happens, but it goes to show that it truly is an addiction.
I’ll end by saying that this whole psychic reading fiasco has shown me that I need to heal. Whatever triggered this obsession with knowing everything and the final outcome needs to be healed. My POI is doing whatever it is that he’s doing, it doesn’t change my reality. I just know that before I can have a relationship with anyone, I need to work on the relationship I have with myself.
When you are in the midst of all these readings, don’t forget who the person is that really matters. That person is you.