It's so hard to let go of expectations and deep deep insecurities, and this is one of those times that I get anxious and seek a psychic reading. I start telling myself ridiculous things, like my best friend is going to abandon me (I swear I'm not 14 years old, but the 14 year old in me is super needy when it comes to my closest friends), my business partner hates me, people I spent the evening with think I'm annoying.
Where does this come from? The belief that I'm not enough? And who knows where that came from... well, I know where that comes from but that's a long conversation that is a lot of oversharing and I'm only coming to terms with my parent's parenting style. It would be easy to blame them, but they only did what they knew to do. It's up to me to be more aware of my triggers and react differently - choose to let go, move forward, trust that if I present my real self to the world then I've truly done my best.
