So, I broke down again and read with Mattie this morning. I really do need to stop. Anyways, I'll present this to you all and ask your opinion. Do you think the ex will come back based on what you see here? *The first half of each post is written from perspective of Mattie... so "you" refers to me, the author here. Mattie wouldn't give timelines.
4/22
- Last 4-5 years were struggle for you (yes, very much so. End of military career, working 80+ hours per week plus finishing a degree. I hated the Navy when I left).
- March was particularly difficult (yes, month after ex left me). Your ex was hot-cold... some times she would pull in, and other times she would somewhat emotionally disappear (correct)
- May/June is interesting... someone else involved. Someone from her past. She needs to purge this past person. (I just found out two weeks ago that she is facebook official with a guy since June 17th. I believe this is a guy she previously knew through church/friends. Honestly no idea if they had ever dated before.
- May/June you two will talk but no big expectation... keep it light-hearted. (we spoke every so briefly the end of last week when I wished her a happy belated birthday... just a few short sentences and I sent picture of my new puppy.)
- When feels pressured, she becomes difficult (very true! I can think of a few occasions).
- You feel that you need to move on, but you don't want to. Once you start moving on, she will re-appear. You will be the challenge and she will chase you. Communication over next three weeks or three months. (These feelings were true. Only communication since 4/22 was the quick message last week).
- Conversations about being controlling will need to be address... now, make no mistake, you didn't control her with a lease - you allowed freedom - but you wanted a serious commitment and she wasn't quite ready for that, so she felt, in some ways, controlled or tied down. (I believe this was true).
- August to September you may consider other work or you might be moved around internally at your work
- When you two start talking, she may not be ready for marriage, but there will be a compromise. You will learn how to adjust... August through September comes with many new opportunities and your ex will be there. (PENDING)
- She absolutely loved you. Far more than you realize, but fear got the best of her. (my ex admitted several times that she never expected to fall in love with me, but she did. She said I was practically perfect in so many ways, but there were fears she expressed)
- Monday will be a day out of the blue... she will reach out. Something about a car... the car will be an excuse. (Prior to break-up, ex spoke about how she leases a car but lease was expiring summer/fall of this year and she wanted my advice as a banker/financial advisor)
- This person from her past... was a form of emotional backstop. Someone from 8-9 years ago, this person is a safety blanket. Not an intimate thing or grounded thing. He may not be local, she will be let down by this guy by moving towards him. She knows nothing will take shape with him (no idea).
- You are very giving and very affectionate, but you can be very fearful or anxious (true - I feared, at times, that I wasn't good enough for her).
5/14
- Immediately, I am seeing Audrey Hepburn. Do you know someone or love someone that looks like Audrey Hepburn? (after googling photos and asking for opinions of others... my ex's face very much resembles Audrey Hepburn's).
- I keep getting the song "Moon River" the spirits are singing, almost shouting, it.
- You need to relax, just go with the flow.
- Your ex is curious about you. Just relax... when she senses you are a bit more relaxed or perhaps moving on, she will re-appear.
- Are you an OCD driver? Like, do you always have to drive a certain way? (Yes! ha. I always use turn signals, left-lane road rules, etc.)
- I am seeing Midwest... you are in the Midwest aren't you? (correct)
*Ex's mom wished my happy graduation after finishing my masters, so I asked Mattie about this... and she said "I get that the mother has good intentions, but she may have inadvertently interfered. She wants the best for her daughter, big plans. She wants the best for her daughter but she really liked you. She really wanted you to end up with her. I am getting [name]." (Mattie immediately said my ex's mom's name
7/2
- Immediately, why are you confused or sensing complications? It's like you can't make heads or tails of something (I just found out my ex is dating).
When asked about how ex feels about me...
- The connection is there, but you feel stuck as to whether or not the connection is tangible. They are saying to me over and over again... 'Hold tight... its been a bumpy ride, but hold tight. There will be some sort of movement forward towards you. They are also saying to me that your ex is somewhat flighty, or not completely grounded.
- There is a sense of sending something... like a picture or image to you of mountains in the background. It's very scenic (how I found out my ex was dating was looking at her facebook and seeing two picture of a guy's arm around her... during a trip to Colorado mountains they took together with about 15 friends from church. There were mountains in the background of both photos. I did not mention this to Mattie).
- I sense a breaking of the ice here and it has the desired effect (I hadn't told Mattie yet, but it was the day after I saw these - bad idea, I know - that I sent my ex a 'happy belated birthday' message)
- I feel... almost when you start to move forward, you will get the sense of something... you will get the courage to start letting go and relaxing. You won't have to chase other women. You may have a few 'interludes' or casual dates. When you start to "live," she will re-appear
- Mattie once again talked about mountains and the scenery.
- Do you break your cheek or chew it? (I do at times)
- Spirit is showing me you biting your cheek... after you ex reaches out, it will give you food for thought. (no idea)
- Placement around August or September. Your life starts to get really interesting, something coming. Placement of sorts, perhaps career? You will start to feel more optimistic. You've been really low lately... perhaps the last 3 days or 3 weeks (yes... since finding out about the new boyfriend life has been miserable)
- Spirit keeps saying not to assume the worst. Your ex constantly thinks about you, compares you to this new guy and knows that he can't compare at all. Things are not what they seem, despite the fact that she may look happy in the photos. The reality is quite different. Do not concern yourself with social media. Focus on you and by the end of July, I see you in a much better place.
- I just feel that your ex needed to discover or learn if she could actually have another connection with someone else. The current relationship is superfluous. It won't last. Do not take notice, there will be communication between you and her.
- Why am I seeing birthday cake and mountains? (ex's trip to Colorado was over her birthday weekend)
- When I feel this relationship, or superfluous endeavor, that your ex is in, I truly get nothing long-lasting or meaningful. There is meddling or interference from another woman. It is almost as though he is not completely single, or there is a feeling that an ex girlfriend is not completely gone.
- I am telling you now... do not get involved. There is stuff on social media that will upset their situation, as though someone from his past or current space will get very angry or upset. Someone that he either has a connection with or, more likely, is currently connected with. Be thankful that you are being shielded from this. Your ex will realize she's been deceived or "been had." Things appear playful between the two of them, but absolutely zero emotions.
- Again, I am seeing your back turned to her, when she starts tapping on your shoulder and softly weeping
- I see communication from her... it might be "listen, let me show you this picture." She will be the one who wants to say something to you.
- I see an image of your ex and a lollipop? Perhaps she will be sweeter or more affectionate? I believe more affectionate.
- The lesson you will need to learn is that you cannot be intense with your feelings (which is not necessarily a bad thing) without perhaps being controlling. Make no mistake, you never intentionally controlled her, but the idea of marriage spooked her. She wanted to feel some freedom (I can confirm that she had expressed a desire for more freedom while working at a previous job. She told me, 'if we get engaged.... I am working 70+ hours per week. How can I plan the wedding, hang with you, hang with friends, and still find time to explore life?')
- There will be a coming-together. Spirit is calling it a "truth commission." An opportunity to get together to work on what went wrong and how to fix it. Your ex will want this conversation - she will be very motivated. You will leave this time with a feeling of clearing... a door opening.