Hi all:
Just a lil bit of my story. I broke up with my POI in Nov end.
And then went on a psychic binge resulting in getting money out of my savings to pay my credit card.
It was painful. I didnt sleep or eat or do anything.
All i did was think and think and think some more.
then i found this forum and figured i wasted so much of my hard earned money on psychics who do nothing but dole out hope.
May be its good or may be its bad.
And then i did meet some who are awesome-honest-considerate-kind- Kisha, Yona, QoC, Shaman Kira, Lady P, Jewel, TrueLove Tarot. These are the only ones i go to now. No more binging - no more self harm
What i have figured in last 3 months is this-
What we are probably looking for is not reconciliation. May be what we are really looking for is peace or just some closure.
When any break up drives us to psychics, its obvious something terrible happened. Either someone ghosted us or dumped us or cheated or just walked away after a fight.
And all we need at that time is that POI back in our life because thats what we imagined our life to be.
Its like an addict who suddenly doesnt have his/her fix.
And its normal...all we want at that time is reconciliation.
But as time passes with money down the drain after many readings , you suddenly wake up to the fact what is it you really want?
DO you really want someone who pushed you to that limit...splurging money and waking up with a headache and not sleeping and almost not living.
What odds that the person will do it again
where is the love for yourself
What about all the pain he caused . will it go away when you ever reconcile
Is reconciliation even worth it
what about trust
so many things...i dont have any answers.
I dont know what i want and what will happen.
but i do know that i went through hell. i didnt eat or sleep or work. I kept questioning myself- Why me?
So may be what i was looking for was a closure....was it me or them?
Blessings to all who are in the same boat and much love