Hi Misty!
Dianalc and Kisha were both right. Chance and I spoke yesterday about what happened on Tuesday, and things are almost back to how they were before. When we argued, he cancelled the trip to Mexico, and he still hasn't brought that back up.
We will be spending a lot of time together in the next week, and we're going to Disneyland on Tuesday. I think we'll be ok...
...except for the fact that I sent my ex a couple texts last night asking him what happened between us and telling him that I'm sad it didn't work out. I shouldn't have done it because I don't want to hurt Chance, but there's so much I want to tell my ex. I miss him so much. He gave me a brief response, but nothing revealing or earth-shattering. At least it wasn't rude or dismissive, which is actually what I was expecting. I was surprised he responded at all. We did talk at work today, and he was acting flirtatious, but he always does that. I know we're not going to be together, but I needed him to know how I felt. I don't care if it pushed him further away emotionally or if it made him think of me negatively. I told him because I wanted to and needed to for my own sanity.
This whole thing sucks. I don't want to hurt Chance, but I'm not completely available because a part of me still wants to be with the idiot. I can't sabotage this thing with Chance, but I'm afraid that I will.
