@icloud: I can't help it but feel angry with myself. I've spent a ridiculous amount of money getting readings on this guy over the last 5 years. I feel like one of the main reasons I kept holding on was BECAUSE of the readings. They'd tell me things would get better, and they did. But it was always only for a short amount of time and things would be bad the majority of the time. Some of these readings are down right confusing as of late to be honest. Actually, ever since October.
1. April of this year I'm told of someone new coming in with physical description of said person and was told I'd "entertain" the idea of indulging.
2. June, July, August, September, no mention of this new person again. Was told ex was going to return "home" which means to my place and wouldn't be in said location for an "extended period" of time. Well, it's been 7 months and he's still there. I guess extended means years? Idk and I'm not even trying to figure it out anymore.
3. Starting October 15th reading, I'm told that eventually I will move on because they see me in a new actual relationship but ex is still lingering wanting to be part of my life and having a hard time coming to terms with me being involved with someone else.
4. November 3rd reading, I'm told of the same new guy that I'm supposed to connect with but that I'm hesitant with that relationship at first and so it may be something I just get involved with temporarily or entertain the idea of.
5. November 21st reading, told of the same new guy, description, age, etc. yet again and told I'd be feeling like I was in a more steady and open relationship but isn't sure if it's long term yet and that it may just be something I entertain and test out. Meanwhile, ex is still around lingering but that I'm not putting a whole lot of energy into it and I'm feeling "a loss" at the same time I'm engaging with someone new.
I am so f'ing confused with those readings. It's clear that some dude is coming in that is a certain age and looks a certain way. Ok I get that part. But, is it just another waste of my time? It is temporary and then something happens with ex and he returns here? Like wtf happened to the readings from June, July, August, and September? lol. How is it that the ex returns "home" if I'm involved with someone new? I just can't even understand stuff right now.
I know I'm not having anymore readings until January or February. I'm very much into astrology and I know that we've been in retrograde energies since October and they don't leave until the end of this month so I'm really not surprised at the confusion. I should have known better than to get readings during a venus and mercury retrograde. If I get a reading in January and it still comes out as confusing, then I'm done with readings for a very long time, if ever.