@jordie- yes, I can choose to not ever let this man back in my world, i can choose to keep him at bay for a couple years until he's ready for me and for a healthy relationship. We ALL have that choice to kick out these unhealthy men/women that we've fallen for.
The question is what path do you want to take? Cookie, for a lot of people can see things come to fruition, she's not always right, but she definitely sees things that happen. If this man doesn't walk back in my world for 6-8 months, what am going to do? Sit on my couch for the next 6 months? I certainly hope not. But that in itself, is a total choice that I could make. I could decide to be a hermit, to be sad, to not go out and live my life. But the truth is, I really, really, really want to be happy, so I force myself to get up every morning and go to work. I force myself to go socialize even if I'm not in the mood. I force myself to put a smile on my face even if I'm feeling the shits. And I do it for myself, I do it for all of the wonderful people in my life because I want and deserve to be happy. I'll fake it till I make it.
The thing is and we've all heard it a million times, these guys don't deserve us, they dumped us or something happened and we can't be together or they made us miserable. But the heart wants what the heart wants. And I think that's why we all get so stuck. We always want what we cannot have.
But I'm starting to see things that I didn't see before. And that is his wants/needs aren't aligning with my own. If he was supposed to be in my world, he would be. And I truly believe that our higher selves know we want us to be happy and that's why these people get booted out of our lives.
So with that in mind, I'm still trucking along over here, knowing and trusting that one day I'll find that relationship that I really, really want and will make me happy. And of all this stupid shit that I'm going thru with this guy will hopefully just be a blip on the radar.
Sorry for the tangent guys... I know I should keep it to predictions info...