Hahaha. It's really not funny, but sunandmoon it sounds like we were dating the same guy!! He's in law school which occupies most of him time, I get it, BUT don't make false promises!! My guy asked me to take a trip with him to Washington, DC!! (we live in San Diego). For my 30th birthday a couple weeks ago he suggested that we go to a fancy restaurant in San Fran. NONE of these things happened, and I don't think he ever had the intention of making them happen. Part of me thinks he just gets a kick out of knowing that I'll say yes. In my heart I KNOW he's not a bad person... I wouldn't love him if he was, but he's putting me through hell, and I don't understand why he just doesn't let go.
Bluesgirl23, you're right. I just wish I wasn't just a hopeful fool. I hope one day I am able to let go of this dream. I don't think I can ride this rollercoaster much longer.
And neither of you are being to harsh or "raining on my parade." I joined this forum to seek the support of others who went through or are going through what I am. Sometimes I feel as if I am completely crazy, but this forum helps me quite a bit.