So I had a decent September with the help of the break for September thread. I had 3 readings at the start of October but haven’t had a reading in 12 days. So taking stock I’ve cut back on the number of advisors, I do this from time to time but the list grows back. Anyway I looked at the chats I’ve had with one advisor in particular since March 2018 and I counted 51!!! chats between March and October. No typo and that’s just with that advisor. The sad well stupidest thing is she never was right, she set a prediction for way out and I kept calling seeking reassurance and then when the time came the time frame shifted. 51 is an embarrassingly large amount of times to call. In the past I thought I was over this addiction but that figure with that reader alone just shows how much denial I was in and how low I must have been to do that to myself. I know I’ve become a bit better too in terms of the addiction as I’ve never read with cookie but have heard so many good things so thought I would get in the que. today I was sitting at number 8 and instead of being excited, I thought F*** It and cancelled the callback. No regret on canceling.
Congratulations. It's these decisions we make day by day, sometimes hour by hour, that help us regain our own power in this whole crazy thing. I'm in the queue for Cookie, too, and now I'm thinking about canceling.
My mom has a saying: "Turn the 'What if?' into 'Whatever.'" Gonna try to practice that right now.