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Hello and My Story...

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lightme:

--- Quote from: cosmo11 on August 25, 2011, 08:31:23 PM ---that's beautiful, lightme!

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thanks! and thanks for your links!

PheonixSoul:
Thank you all for the welcome and listening to my story.  After what happened the other night with my ordeal trying to be real and not cower behind little text messages and phone call, and instead try to talk to her face to face, to actually talk.  I went in thinking you know...if all these psychics are telling me that she deeply loves me she would have at least talk to me, in some form right...3 months of no communication does not make any sense no matter how scared they are.  Maybe they picked up on some DEEP emotional level she cannot feel yet.  I may never know and I honestly do not want to know anymore.  After last night I got my answer.

I do agree with what you say Cosmo about readings and if you go into something DESPERATELY wanting something to happen you give off a vibe.  I probably did go into my first reading desperately wanting to hear that she was the one for me and that persuaded him to believe it too.  Even after two months I really was on the next step of just moving on and saying screw it, this is not worth it.  But I went to the online psychics and they encouraged me to keep holding on and fighting, she come back.  I took their word and believed.  I thought it must be true, I can not shake her out of my head.

It honestly was not until I came across this site that I really really started to doubt the online psychics.  Sure I read those ripoff reports online and figured, probably just a disgruntled customer.  I even thought...ok, they probably have 1000 people or more get readings a day, there is bound to be ONE if not around 2% or more that may get an incorrect reading.  When I found this site and started reading and reading everything people had to say.  Even mentioned some of what they said to other members (your lover will come back to you so in so time frame) with VERY similar predictions...figured, ok now something is not right.  I decided I needed to talk to someone in person, I needed to SEE their eyes, no more misleading over the phone or chat window.

When I saw this woman the other day, I really went into it scared.  I was open, but scared what she was going to tell me.  Is she going to give me ANOTHER fairy tale, is she going to tell me to move on.  I am really honestly glad I met her.  I could see in her eyes she GENUINELY cared.  She was a very nice lady.  I said nothing to her...I introduced myself and I had questions ready but did not ask, I let her read me and just went with it.

She picked up my personality perfectly.  I was shocked.  She even picked up who I was.  Even used the words I used, that person DIED back then.  She even said to me "I do not see that person you were back then, I see you AWAKENED, you are your true self now, VERY strong person".  I was shocked because that is how I do feel.  She even picked up my confusing nature on what to do in life.  She says because I am a Pisces and also close to Aquarius sign, that I am VERY VERY intuitive as well as very intelligent.   She says that I live up there, in the sky because I am intuitive, I can feel energy around me, I know those positive and negative energies when you walk into a room.  I thought wow, I do think she is right about that.  She then tells me because I am so intelligent and intuitive, when I come down to this plane so to speak, they butt heads.  I have my logic and my intuition fighting to say what is right.

When it came to my ex, she told me it was my logic and ego telling me to fight, not my intuition.  Looking back on it, I think she was right...I got confused (as usual  :o ) and took it that I was following my heart.   When it came to love, she told me, you been hurt...you still love someone dont you...I said yes.  She said, "move on...she is hurt and you hurt her, she does not want to be with you but she still cares for you, but not in that way anymore...move on."  In my nature I fought a little, I asked her, are you sure, you are definite, she says "I feel she is NOT the one, there is a better one out there, very beautiful, someone you are about to meet but the universe cannot show her to you until you let this one go."

I was reluctant  :P asked her no way it work...she says, "MAYBE...but only if you truly want to give up EVERYTHING for her, no dating, no girls, nothing, live like a monk...no facebook, nothing...literally live like a monk.  She is watching you because you scorned her and she doesnt truly believe you...it may take MONTHS or even worst, may never happen."  She convinced me to go see her...get an answer, do not wait.  She says, if you truly truly believe she is the one, go see her, no excuses, no text, phone, email, letter, SEE HER.  Go by her house, ask to talk to her, and if she talks, it means she cares, even if it was a bad conversation.  If she does not talk to you, you got your answer and you should move on.  She was right.  Regardless of the situation, I am glad I followed HER advice over those psychics online who just continue to drag my life along instead of letting me move forward in the natural healing process.

I plan to have a reading with her again, maybe next week if possible or the week after...I want to get more insight on what she feels may come into my life. 

I will definitely look into your sites you posted Cosmo about detachment.  Maybe Michael Sky is right, she come back once I completely get her out of my mind and she is gone...maybe she may never.  But I know one thing, I am not waiting anymore.  If my life was like a movie, I kept my life in pause too long and now I need to let it play out and just go with it and see where  the next scene leads me, not knowing what will happen (well maybe get a spoiler from a psychic here and there :)  but wont hold my breath on it).  Now I just have to go one day at a time to break her out of my head completely, and I will.  And make new friends in the process...really hate my shy nature :)

sunandmoon:
That is amazing! Your bday must be near mine. I had a psychic tell me the other day as well that I am confused to my heart and mind, that when I think I am following my heart I am not. My heart always wants to protect me and give to me. When I think my mind says to let go and my heart says to continue, I am not getting the difference between heart and intuition. This was quite a shock after 18 months of this crap!

Before I called any psychics last year, I did see one locally. She was such a sweetheart but of course I didn't see her again because she told me as I sat there with tears running down my face (this being 6 weeks after he walked away) "honey, he's not that one". And I never believed her. Now I wonder if maybe she was right all along. I need to find my notes from that day.

PheonixSoul:
You know through everything that I have been through, I would first think (based on my experience) that Psychics do not exist, they cannot predict anything.  Yet when I look truly back on it...I really do feel and believe they exist.  You just really have to find them, and connect with them.  There are those that truly want to help people and do not care about money or fame or anything.  The first psychic I met was like that.  He told me he charges $30 for a 30 minute reading and if it goes longer, he will not charge for more...just a flat $30 and I could contact him anytime.  My reading with him was almost 2 hours long.  Granted I think I spent almost half the time understanding his abilities and who he sees and him describing my Spirit guide.  He was telling me that I have ONE main spirit guide and he is basically my brother.  He even gave him a name (Ralph or Rafael...can not remember).  This guide was always with me throughout my journey.  He also told me that there are always NUMEROUS guides that pop up to see how I am doing, guide me as well and help me.  He even shocked me in describing my first dog I had when I was a child...even his species and color, and told me that he was next to me at the time, as a guide now.  I should have believed him more later when he said he felt that she was no longer the one and I should move on, but my ego took over and I did not.  Instead I took the words of the online/phone psychics thinking, well they do it professionally, they must be better right?

Well I feel that may not always be the case.  I think in order to really have a true connection with anyone and to feel their energy, pathways, etc...you have to care for that person.  Be truly honest in what you feel, what you hear.  That is something I learned and saw when I met this new psychic.  She looked like she had a passion to help.   I think those on TV, online, telephone services, Webcams (whatever they may be) are usually now in it for the money and/or fame.  Because they are in that, their gift (whether true or very powerful) is probably tainted and not as strong as before, they probably slowly become blind.  Yet that is my belief nowadays and from my experience anyways lol...I am probably rambling since it is late :)

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