I would not feel embarrassed. I think maybe, at least, every other day I have a fleeting thought about the ex. But then, I also think of why do I even give them the time of the day?
When it is clearly obvious he probably never has me in mind and off enjoying things with someone else. Does not care about how I am doing and only cares about himself and whatever he is doing.
I do not check on him, at all. Because I know what I may hear or see could hurt me more. Sometimes, you are better off lying to yourself if the reality of what is happening hurts you and interferes with your own life and to avoid seeing or hearing things. I know how curiosity can be, but it can makes things worse.
It did big time for me, because I had very gossipy people that thought coming back to me with information was a good thing. I finally said to them, to stop telling me things. That they were doing nothing to help. One told me not to dwell on it. I exclaimed back to them, that they keep telling me things. What is the purpose of this. This is, also, how I confirmed the psychics were wrong; charlatans. Because the things that were happening in reality were nothing like they were saying. I mean way out there off.
The only thing I could confirm is the ex he went to was, and this is general and happens often, feeding his negativity. It is, of course a commonality, in a lot of situations. I am not in their love life and it cringes me to know. And is like mental torture and emotional to have those details.
The worst thing I dealt with, was a psychic that very clearly lied tremendously and give me advice not to move on. And I hate to say it, he would of told her from the very beginning, "I love this one woman, do not intrude." "I want everything to work out with us." Not take an ex going through a divorce on a date.
Some said, he just feels responsibility towards her. That she manipulates him and others. But that is a stock line. And even told me she would finally stop this stuff and go permanently away. Lol. I do not see that happening and months have passed now.
I do not think that is the case.
But the reality here is. I was there first until she intruded with our love life and nosed dive in full throttle.
Just like what some fake psychics will tell you to give you piece of mind, you can do it to yourself. Hope is not a bad thing. We all hope for better in ourselves. Power of positivity does go a long way. No matter how small. It becomes like stepping stones to the next big thing.
I know it literally sucks.
We all hope for the best and everyone deserves to be loved and to made a priority by the person we were with.
