I called Jean yesterday...i wanted to see what she would say... i only put in 10 min with her...
M: Hi jean...i wanted to get an update on what was going on with me and M and where this is going?
J: there is a really strong connection between the 2 of you. even thought the 2 of you have not been communicating...that connection still remains very strong. i'm picking up that he is making a really big decision this week...do you know what?
S: no...he is down the shore for the week
J: when you last spoke...did he tell you what was going on with him?
S: yes...he was just being hard on himself and basically turning 40 was really hard etc.
J: yes... he is in a better place then when you 2 last spoke...he is working towards a better direction right now you don't see any of this possible..you can't see him reaching out in any way and you just can't see this being what i see....this is going to come together and the two of you will be together...and i do see marriage.ection (which is what seha, nina, and kinsey have said) but yes...what he said to you in what he was going thru is correct...but he didn't think you would be supportive
S: i don't believe that to be true because i have alwasy been supportive and when we spoke i was giving him some advice etc...so i don't see that to be so.
J:...i keep picking up big decision...he is going to make a decision on something this week.
S: can you see what it is in regards to?
J: it isn't coming in clear...its not about career or stuff like that...let me have your DOBs
J: ok ok...this is a little better...but still not clear...the decision is about you..
S: whats the decision? to end things?
J: no...(she just kept repeating about decisions...as if she was thinking and looking more into it)
S: i emailed him on wednesday to say hello how are you...can you tell me what was going thru his head?
(she just kept saying the same stuff)
S: i emailed him 2.5 hrs later to say "disregard my previous email" can you tell me what he thought of that and if he will still respond?
J: he will explain...he needs to explain something to you...i see that you will hear from him in a few days...i can't see...i am not sure about this...but you will hear from him...but i think he wants to explain in person...but i am not sure about that.
S: about his girlfriend? is he going to decided to reach out to tell me that he is with someone and to leave him alone?
J: yes he is going to reach out...but no...you've been misinformed...
S: jean he has a girlfriend
J: no...he doesn't...the only female that comes thru is you...honey i think you have the wrong idea...
S: can you tell me how long they have been together?
J: i told you...you are the only female that is coming thru...they are not together...i just really think you are under the wrong impression...and i am thinking this is what he is going to clear up with you.
S: if i give you her name and dob, maybe something will come thru on her end? (gave it to her)
J: oh honey...she is NOT his type AT ALL (and she kept repeating this)...you really are under the wrong impression and have been misinformed...this is not what you think at all...and i am going to stick by this and say that i am right and you are wrong here...you will hear from him in 8 days...and this will all be cleared up.
and then we were cut off....so blah blah blah...it makes me feel better for a lil bit and then i think too much and part of me is trying to rationalize and leaves me with hope...and then the other part of me leaves me hopeless and i get mad...i seriously think my only hope at this point is a lobotomy followed by a very light electric shock therapy lol