Thanks for clarifying njlady.
I actually called Rika again earlier today, and I am somewhat torn...
I wouldn't call repeatedly or start reader hopping. It will heighten your anxiety and screw with your head. Major development and you want to check in, ok, but don't step on the hamster wheel.
It sounds counterintuitive that when you are losing something that you desperately want that you should walk away, put it out of your mind and give it space to do whatever it needs to do, but like Rika said - put it out of your mind and don't count the days. Don't hang on to April with a death grip. Work on yourself while you are by yourself. You don't want that phone to ring and instead of working on yourself and being ready all you did was spend $14,000 to call 186 psychics.
If you really feel in your heart, without desperation or excuses, that this woman loves you and the only thing holding her back is something that you have the power to change, then do it with conviction. Do you feel your relationship working out is a fairy tale? Everyone knows, deep down inside, if they are in love or in obsession even if they don't want to admit it.
You can start saying "
God is blessing the loving direct verbal communication between ______ and me" and sending her your love once every night before you go to sleep, then twice, then three times etc. as time goes on. Don't embelish it, act desperate or start puking up your emotional guts to her; just that one sentence, send your love, redirect your thoughts and go to sleep. People you have or have had a loving connection with can feel that on some level. There is nothing that will stop someone who truly loves you and wants to be with you from contacting you. Fear can make them hesitate but fear of losing you will always overcome that.
There isn't any reader who can guarantee anything 100%. Readers can guide you. She gave you the past, the now, what the problem is, what needs to be fixed and potential/probable outcome if you do. Do what you need to do and don't stare at the calendar. Don't let fear mount and negativity get you as days go by. You don't have a dysfunctional situation that is doomed to begin with, just a problem that can be dealt with.
Don't let your left brain take you off track with things like the boat and picking apart details that don't make sense right now. Maybe someone in the family is retiring and has always dreamed of owning a boat and is going to buy one. Maybe a new fake boat club is opening up in your town. There is a bar here where you pay the fee, they put you in a Soviet uniform, stick you in a sub zero freezer, lock the door behind you and you down vodka shots. Doesn't mean I'm in Kiev. Or maybe the boat won't figure in at all. Don't get all hung up on it.