Readings are a double-edged sword for sure.
On one hand, they have actually really proven to me that real psychic talent exists, which must mean there is more to life than what we see and understand in 3D. It's brought me to meditation, to finding other ways to address issues and calm myself when I can remember to do things that way.
But on the other hand, at times I was calming myself THROUGH readings and that's a terrible habit to form. Also, of course, the money. I make a good salary and am fortunate at that (I work my butt off!) but, I could be so much further than I am right now financially, and I'm just not. Ah well, we all have our lessons to learn!
In a way it's brought me much closer to God because I needed to believe in something myself/bigger than me to get me to stop depending on it to get through complicated relationship times, and although that's easier said than done I'm slowly but surely getting there.
It's shown me exactly where I don't have faith in my life, and where I need to work on believing not only do I deserve good things in relationships but that I can have them. A lot of people say it's because you don't believe it. I didn't agree with that part - I didn't necessarily think I would get it.
I explored a LOT of the metaphysical world beliefs and such, and didn't really find myself psychic much but I do use and rely on my intuition now, and I'm not afraid to say "crazy" things or tell people dreams I have because I can sense when I'm supposed to say/tell a message,
It stopped me from making active changes in my life because I knew what was "going" to happen, and actually I would wait on it and not pay attention to other areas of my life because I wanted that one thing to happen so much. I figured once that happened, THEN I'd decide on other parts of my life.
Now, I have let go and gotten to the no-fks-given point (partially because he did a major 180 on me) and have decided to move across country and actually made steps in all areas of my life to make that happen.
And I recently started sponsoring kids through World Vision and Compassion International - 2 at each organization - which some people are like, that's kind of a dent on the wallet - but for me, $~40/kid/month - $160 a month to literally change their entire lives and give them a solid chance to break out of poverty -- not only am I like "hah, I blew that in the span of a few hours on readings before" to myself, but it also helps me care more about how I spend my money. Because now, I am these kids/these family's lifeline. And it's not money going down the drain about some guy who is in love but can't tell up from down as far as me.
I know how four kids who will know my name and life all over the world - Sri Lanka, Columbia, Indonesia, and Senegal. And that's due to the psychic readings, which eventually led me to God, which led me to church group and some amazing ladies who are now my friends, which led me to listen to Christian music, which led me to a concert of an artist I love (Kari Jobe), which led me to World Vision/sponsorship.
I has led me to start a support site/thread like this for those battling psychic ..dependency, even though I stopped being active with it because I was fighting it myself, I will revive it and give it a few months to see if it gains any traction.
Readings changed me in that I stopped communicating "hard stuff" with the guys I was dating or interested in because I would rather get the inside view from a reader and get the leverage on the situation. So it hurt my communication skills. I had to re-learn it and get my sense of confidence back in that, but maybe I never had it to begin with unless I was in a secure relationship.
So in a way, going down the wrong path - never bringing it up, never asking directly and instead asking psychics and waiting, waiting, waiting - led me to a place where I now know I don't have time to waste on guys who can't tell me / talk to me about what's going on, and if I have to ask directly then so be it. If it ends things, so be it. If it's meant to be and what God wants for me, it will come back to my life when the guy is ready.