Spoke with her tonight. I told her about my other reading with Matilda. She got that I will be very frustrated, and feel like a lack of progression regarding moving forward with things with us (meaning one of us moving in with each other), because the move will take longer than I think, and while at that point she will be in love with me, (which she emphasized), she will be kind of scared to make a big move, such as me going there or her coming here, so it'll take a bit longer and she will draw it out a little bit, because she's hesitant to make that next big step. So I may be feeling like pushing an ultimatum as to where/when we move, and making it happen. She said, she doesn't think I'll give an ultimatum, but that if I do, I could ruin it. She warned me at the beginning of the reading that she thinks I will, but after she warned me, and we spoke about it, she told me, "you're usually really good at following my directions, Josh. Since speaking about it, I don't think you'll give that ultimatum, since you've been warned." She said I will go through frustration, and impatience and annoyance, and maybe even a little bit of a feeling of hopelessness regarding the situation, but that so long as I don't give an ultimatum, and allow her the time, she gets that the move will happen, and that I will get what I want. So i feel that Matilda was just picking up on my emotions of hopelessness during that point, and, if it's as bad as abundant makes it seem that I'd feel, at that point, regarding the frustration, then I can see why Matilda would be picking it up, and assuming I'd give up and walk away. She did see that she will be in love with my by then, and that we'd be working on the move. And she'd want this thing with me... So I just have to avoid letting my overwhelming frustrations get the best of me. And trust me, if I'm getting frustrated due to a lack of progression, then you know it's bad. I'm usually a really patient person. So this frustration must be huge.
But abundant still thinks that since the warning, i won't give an ultimatum, and that while I will be very frustrated and emotionally taxed, that so long as I don't, I will get what I want. And she got that since warning me, I won't give the ultimatum. She even said that even though it 'could' ruin things if I give the ultimatum, I'd still want her even if I did that, so regardless, it wouldn't be me walking away. But I just have to avoid that ultimatum, and I'll be set.
So I'm feeling a little better today. When the time comes, guys, I'm going to come on here and probably fret and ask for support, so please bear with me and help me out, so that I don't get so frustrated that I give an ultimatum. I know I'll need the support by that time. Thank you.
