chrysraihl please protect your feelings if you decided to go this route. trust me i am in same situation and it's dragged for over 2 years now! during this time i have never been so low and i understand you girl i totally do! i cannot imagine not being around him even though is for a few hours but on the other hand if i could turn back time i would avoid him like hell when he first asked me to hang out - only because the pain i had gone through (and i still do) is worse then my worse nightmare.
I'm sure many of us can relate on some level and people have always said: you can't help who you fall in love with, but this is so
not true. I met a married guy once in one of my classes and we use to email each other daily and I couldn't wait for work, just to email him and I couldn't wait for class, just to see him.
I started down this road knowing full well he was married with two kids. He was so funny in his emails and sometimes we'd call each during office hours and at some point, I felt we should be together.
I believed he felt the same and was waiting on me to make the first move, but looking back if I had, he would have just used it for his justification later on. At some point: the more I thought about being second, the more I thought about how my present situation would not have changed and that I wasn't ready to be the cause of someone else's breakup - I told him point blank not to text, email, or call me. I told him I liked him and knew he liked me, but I didn't like (us) enough to even sacrifice what I really want and if I started to get deep into him, it would block who I was truly suppose to meet. I refused to go down that road.
Now granted, two weeks before this, I was totally like I'm in it to win it, but I finally decided that it wasn't what I wanted and I discovered I could have walk away from this much sooner. If the dots aren't in a row for the person you want, you can always step back, take a break and assess the situation. That's what I did and I'm much happier because of it, although I lost a possibly good friend in the process.
This was long before I even considered getting a read from psychics and knowing as much as I do about readers now, they probably would have pushed me down the wrong path anyway.