My last reading with Yona
She said a Page of Cups the card has a buzz to it so it is someone in my life and significant, like there is chemistry... I am assuming POI because she goes on explaining I am frustrated and can not make someone learn the way I do, I experience it and learn once I learn something I learn for life, but she said after I can not make someone learn if they don't want to she said the pace is getting to me (If this is about how slow we are in moving to a more committed relationship she is RIGHT) I could have closed the door and I didn't but says there us change in tempo coming up, conversation and he is full of excuses but there are apologies and explanations, he lacks the wisdom and is not lying it is just his momentum has dipped, she got the magician card and said something is up with his eating habits like he is missing Vitamins or something, he will want to meet up but doesn't want big talks and cuts off topics that make him uncomfortable but we are pleased to see each other. She said don't bring up things he doesn't want to talk about but that he is wanting to interact with me- she then said he will bait me, like mention something and then shut up about it, no new women but he mentions something to see my response but I know what he is doing but it is not deceptive... I look at it logically, she sees me putting distance and going on with my own life but again chemistry with him - he tries to get me jealous or get a rise out of me- gap before we have interactions shown and then back on track, I have a sharp intellect..
then she went into more things about another male sorting finances out and I am annoyed with them wasting $, we are not in agreement on how they are spending money, they have less money than anticipated- allocating resources not being done in the right way, further down the line finance rather than the person, negotiation I do not back down on this (this she said has nothing to do with love life and is not POI) I have to stand my ground and let them know there are better ways of handling this, I am stressed they can't see it a different way, important to me but I am not anxious about it, not taking no for an answer and will not be trapped by other people... then she saw a break in routine change-defend my position this person is not trying to rip me off but isn't working in the long run,I am right, I do things my way and take matters into my own hands, brings about change and success, keeping my life on track, not a power struggle assert myself to make things work
then she got back to POI and saying chemistry/liking manageable frustration of unfulfilled- lazy patches, they get lost, just slow challenges my patience - me High Priestess - Knight of Wands, working crossing paths with a person who can challenge me, unknown quantity (a practical reason for talking) different background/ different circumstances, POI is a slow learner/low energy KOW is motivated person paths cross -
I think this might be a marker but then she went into King of Swords an older man good man not romantic- brave front even though he is struggling (health) older, update man known to me (tower, just a set back) struggling to keep home life and routine going even if he says he is fine check on him he is stubborn and worried and I am meant to get involved (she said timeframe reference maybe to POI) complicated?
slow- different stages, ongoing connection, he is fond of me- we understand each other- plans for future - Knight of Wands coming in, POI isn't letting me down but clinging to bad habits, main POI - depression, I know he struggles with depression which is why I make allowances- frustrating not a diversion, present ideas different ways, I learn from experience he learns at his own pace, he likes me wants to spend time with me, not invested in what happens next (Tower- slow) hiding out, worried he will get it wrong/lacks confidence - able to control his part to shift things- he chooses to stay connected and will test if I am jealous but she said I will be pleased he is doing that as it means he wants to know where I stand how I feel still... again she said him changing what he eats, I went through re-inventing myself - Queen of Wands, financial matter take practical steps- longer range take decisive action, in my marriage/home life alpha male- sorted- content- work,
person coming in Knight of Wands- no frustration at that point,
King of Swords, older man setback- ask him in more detail, gets worried...
plus/minus lovers- POI no longer shut away, justifies the way he likes to keep things private- deep/private- on the ball/quick when there is a rival - chatting knows someone is interested in me, he talks about property- deep/private he is turning away from that and talking about a property- short of $ but do-able, next few months promising signs but still not about settling down- enthusiasm/property- he is aware someone is into me, he will be socializing more, property genuine but he is still slow- he can't go as fast as me, he has genuine respect and connection to me and will shift from this 3-4 months/ living arrangements, talk stage- signs of stepping up, doesn't want to let me go- I put time limit-
Knight of Wands not at a crossroads- communication widening horizons- sometimes he surprises me- he is aware someone else is interested- gaps when things are changing (which has to be lately!!!) older man, looking at pros and cons energy exchange, new person- POI new place/relocating. Ace of Wands- talk/slow progress, I am not missing out on what I am supposed to do ,part of purpose slow-life lessons of his own... living arrangements, socializing, picking up momentum- Knight of Wands he picks up a different pace, POI not ready yet, developments this summer- momentum 6 months...
She sees KOW coming in changing the dynamic I believe, but I asked her I am pretty patient but I want kids one day and I worry I am wasting time that is when she said no they would be nagging you, this is all part of your purpose and you won't miss out on what you are supposed to do.. so we will see.
