Hi Vanyct, thanks for your reply.
i am on emotional roller coast. my big prediction is end of aug, from a few "good" psychics. i worry if a change a "batch" of psychics things may be different and that will really screw my brain, and my wallet.
and yes i agree i am too weak to face the "truth" now.
waiting is crazy painful. apparently ability to read the past and current situations may not be able to tell the future. honestly i am weak now and i only want to hear positive reading. and after hearing a good reading, i will still doubt is that true?
i think i will just stop calling and let nature takes its course. i am weak now and it is not rational to spend money like this trying to fish out the real deal. but it is so painful, i don't mind spending if the psychic is real.